I'll never give up, I promised myself that a long time ago. I have faced so many horrible, heartbreaking, and life changing things in my life. I've wanted several times to breakdown and yes I have on a few ocassions but that's not the person I want to be. I want to be strong for my family and friends, i want to be able to tell them everything's going to be okay even when i don't believe it myself. I want to be there for them not matter what. I want to be a strong person and sometimes that isn't so easy. I have had so many things go wrong in my life and always put a smile on my face and wipe the tears away, but thats really hard to do this time. And im not the person to ever give up but this time i don't know how im going to do it. I don't know how im going to put a smile on my face everyday and pretend like everything's ok.